I stumbled and tripped in it
Ran faster than I knew I could from it
Slammed into walls I couldn’t see trying to get away from it
But it was still there
Still creeping up around me
Still scaring me
Why won’t it leave me?
I’m tired
I can’t run anymore
But I’m not done fighting it
I hold my head in my hands and refuse to look at it
Maybe I can’t escape it, but this I can control
I am in control.
It can’t make me see it
It can’t make me learn
I refuse.
But I start to get confused
It’s so dark with my eyes closed
And isn’t that what I’ve been so afraid of?
The dark.
That’s when it hit
It hit hard
My eyes finally opened and I saw it
I saw it so clearly
It was never going to leave me
It couldn’t
It was in me
Trapped.
I held the dark in my heart
And I held it tight
Then, when I finally let it go
It let me illuminate it
It let me shine
I needed the dark so I could shine.
